Rabu, 03 November 2010

I am What I am



Sepintas kalimat judul post di atas mirip-mirip salah satu tagline sepatu atau brand fashion apalah gitu. Tapi kalimat ini lebih jauh menancap untuk sekedar mengingatkan diri gw sendiri, supaya, teteup menjadi diri sendiri. Gw banyak melihat berbagai macam karakter orang di lapangan. Ada yang berhati baik tapi terpaksa hanya karena ingin di cap 'baik-baik' di lingkungan, ada yang sombong karena terlanjur dilabeli sombong oleh lingkungan dimana ia berada, padahal orang itu mungkin punya alasan sendiri kenapa ia bersikap seperti itu atau belum sempat ia menjelaskan kenapa, tapi emang dasar gosip lingkungan yg udah buru-buru mencap dia seperti itu. Ada juga orang yang ketus, judes dan ga ramah taunya setelah diselami orang tersebut baik, baik dalam arti sesungguhnya. Terkadang gw suka tersenyum kecut ketika membaca profil salah satu 'teman' di kolom info fb, dia menyatakan dirinya ; Im easy going person. Gw sih cuman bisa ketawa, karena belum tentu juga orang itu ngerti arti EASY GOING PERSON yang sesungguhnya. Bisa jadi kan dia cuma mau sok-sok an nulis bahasa inggris, istilahnya keren-kerenan gitu!, mana gw tahu?.

Ada lagi pengalaman, seorang teman cowok, di lapangan dia membisu alias jarang ngobrol tapi ketika ngobrol via sms, akraaaaabnya bukan main *kadang-kadang dia sms-an pake bahasa ABG yang bikin il-peel*. Suatu ketika gw kesel karena setiap ketemu doi di tempat tongkorngan, dia sama sekali ga pernah menyaap gw, padahal kita selalu ngobrol seru di sms. ANEH!!!. Saking keselnya, gw damprat dia via sms persis seperti 'caranya yang hanya akrab di sms'. Akhirnya dia mengaku bla bla bla. Di sms itu gw bilang, kalo gw bukan tipe cewek yang suka basa-basi manis *** kucing!. Perlulah gw bersikap seperti itu? apa gw ga takut kalo-kalo nga ada cowok yang ngedeketin gw?. Peduli amat, gw hanya ingin nyaman menjadi diri sendiri. Udah saatnya gw berhenti menyalahkan diri sendiri, I AM WHAT I AM. Gw hanya ingin jadi diri sendiri, apa salah?. Ya nggaklah, peduli amat!. Gw percaya, orang yang mencintai gw apa adanya sembari teteup dong gw introspeksi diri *teteup ga mau kalah juga, toh?*. Gw rada lucu ketika ngeliat salah satu profil FB *lagi-lagi ketipu FB*. Eh tapi yang ini nga ketipu dan nipu loh, jadi si cewek ini kayaknya anak 'manis'manis' ya, saking 'manisnya' setiap dia bikin status, semua berebut kepengen ikut campur dan kepingin tau alias KEPO sama kejadian di balik update-an statusnya. Karena ternyata FBnya dia, sama sekali dia nga membatasi diri mana yang private dan yang boleh dibuka buat umum. Walaupun nih, di setiap dia menjawab komen-komen orang2 yang KEPO sama kehidupan pribadinya, si cewek ini menjawab dengan jawaban ngeles yang terlalu ramah. Sehingga update-an statusnya selalu ping-pong di bales lagi--di bales lagi. Ni cewek emang pinter ngeles juga sih, Tapi apa dia NGA MUAK BERSIKAP MANIS-MANIS terus????. Manusia nga semua sempurna lohhh, mbakyu... gw aja muak sama orang yang bersikap kayak gitu, gemes lebih tepatnya seh!. Apa lagi, yang berpura-pura demi menarik perhatian lawan jenis alias nga jadi diri sendiri. Diantara isi kepala dan watak yang berbeda-beda, hanya orang yang munafik yang paling gw benci. Biasanya sih gw mau deket-deket sama orang kayak gitu, cuma bisa bawa pengaruh buruk aja, cih! (pic : polyvore)

Selasa, 26 Oktober 2010

I need Superman

I need Superman, lately I've been realize something about this. Im tired to being alone, I've been 26and still alone. I need Superman, I mean partner in crime (I prefer to say that than say; I need boy friend or boyfriend). I try to nicely to myself, have fun with the besties but deep down and inside my heart i need someone close and I feel comfortable with this person(disguisting). I admit, im lame about flirty or getting boys attention but I dont need hard work to do it, afterall happen with me about this *love* things in the past, forget about that. Nuff say.....










PS: Dear love, Yamamoto, lindungi aku dari serangan 'musuh' ;P

Yamamoto Takeshi was my fave chara, from Katekyo Hitman Reborn

Rabu, 01 September 2010

The gloves are coming



tes drive in my hand, cool ait???
ps : bad quality pic, sucks! :(

I dont need to have motorcycle to wear a gloves, I wear whenever i goes, maybe for the first test drive are, to the mall. Why not?... :)


Selasa, 31 Agustus 2010

Have u ever dreaming about....


Never in my mind doing blogging becoming addiction. Blogging is just like my second diary or should i say digital diary. With blog i can share, write everything what i like, anything and everything, except personal life such as love life, ups.... Im soo surprise when I saw new thingy in blogspot, statistik. Wow, never in my mind, someone across the world read my blog. And when I click who is my audience or poeps who view my blog, surprise!. I never thought someone who live in Great Britain read my blog!. With blogging, everything impossible can be happen into your REAL life. This is happen to me, is about past 2-3 month ago, there's is clothing line from Europe was invited me to they grand launching party in Berlin. Such honour, but since i dont have money to catch flight to Berlin. But I feel honour with their invitation. Please, who the hell are me?, Im not celebrity, famous fashion blogger or super stylish and rich fashion blogger who wear branded stuff from head to toe!. Im not Sussie Bubble, Karla Deras, Bryan Boy or The man behind Face Hunter and The Sartorialist. But from the nothing me becoming something for several poeps, maybe?. thank you very much for all my audience who read or view my blog even I know my english sucks! really sucks, I guess, but I still learning to do the best.

Oke enough for introduction speech, now, something across my mind are, : have you ever dreaming about date with ur fave character on comics?. Hmm... take example, like date with Peter parker or Clark kent. Lately, I've been interest with manga. Yeah you know something like anime, Japan comics blah blah.... Actually, Im not into manga too much, everytime I go to bookstore, I always found loooooooooots new comics about love!. Yikes!, Im just to bored and too 'old' read about love love or pre-teen, teenage romance, ugh!. Just enough with Twilight something!. Now, I need read about 'adult' something. lately I found new interest read comics about shinigami or should I say the god of death. (Isn't rite?). This 'adult' content already give me another 'pleasure'. If i found new pleasure with smoking, read this 'adult' level comis, already help me to develop my mind?, try to understand that adult life is going difficult with different enthusiasm. Ough, my words going weird, huh?. Oke back to topic, oke, my dreaming date from manga character are ; Kakashi from Naruto and Ichigo from Bleach. HA HA, this is so silly i dreaming about that, but just for fun. I will tell the reason why I having crush with the boys...




the Boys

Kakashi- NARUTO
why i love? because he wearing gloves and mask and oh, i just looooove his hair toooo. he just trendy ninja eveeer, errrh...




Ichigo - from BLEACH
Why? what more cool ever than see guys wearing black and black. And his kimono, somehow looks menly, uhm really? HA HA HA.....



Is there any real or normal guy with 'good looking' dress like them? uhm, but im not talking about cosplay, okay?... hehehe....




Kamis, 19 Agustus 2010

Sabtu, 14 Agustus 2010

STOP asking or I will smoking front of your face!!!

Oh gosh! ini bukan pertama kali nya gw dibawelin orang. Its okay if we talking about bussines. Its about serve consumer, gw nga ada masalah sama itu. Tapi yang INI NIH!!!... Jadi ceritanya gini, di tempat kerja gw (tadinya) gw nga berminat tukeran no hp dengan si miss bawel ini. Jadi gw udahlah cuek aja nga ikut-ikutan minta no hpnya. Entah kenapa dan kesambet apa, emang dasar gw yang ganjen akhirnya gw meminta nomer hpnya, yah tadinya sih sekedar basa-basi doang. Sms pertama, kedua, ketiga kesekian kali nga apa kenapa-napa. Lah yang berikutnya baru deh keliatan aslinya, BAWEL!. Nga ada yang lebih nyebelin ketika menghadapi orang yang bawel. Masalahnya dia itu bolak-ik tanya satu pertanyaan yang udah dijawab eh malah di tanya-tanya lagi, gila budek lo ya?!!..... Akhirnya di balik ke-empet-an, ke-gedek-an gw cuman bisa narik nafas panjang dan berucap ; sabaaaaaaaaaaar deh sabaaaaaaaaaar......... fiuhhh!. Jadi nyesel minta no.hp-nya, kalo aja dia nga bawel dan kepingin tau banget atau yang kata temen gw suka 'pura-pura' nga tau padahal udah tau, shit! rasanya pengen di sikat aja deh tuh orang atau lebih tepatnya ;

"smoking front of ur face!"

Rabu, 11 Agustus 2010

Wishlist of August : STATEMENT RING


The Skull gang










The Beauty gang











The Ball gang







The Warrior gang






I need a hard core and statement ring for embrace my tiny fingers.....

Minggu, 08 Agustus 2010

Sebersik aroma dan rasa nyaman


Perjalanan adalah salah satu hal fave gw. Terlebih menjadi nikmat rasanya jikalau bisa menikmati perjalanan beserta moment-momentnya walaupun tanpa terabadikan kamera. Jadi ceritanya, kemaren, gw pergi ke acara temen bersama seorang 'temen' then kita menghabiskan perjalanan bersama with motorcycle. Pentingnya apa?. His fragrant and ada satu momen gw merasa terbius dengan sebuah kenyamanan. Waktu gw mencium wangi parfumnya (tsaaaaaaaaah ude kayak di iklan-iklan) I fell like want to huge him. Tentu saja gw nga bisa dan tidak bisa sembarangan bersikap seperti itu, bukaaaan?. Sialnya, gw sudah merasa nyaman dan seakan-akan seperti di kunci mati "klik"!. Serius, i want to huge him, satu moment diterlintas dikepala gw untuk mengungkapkan ekspresi itu. Masalahnya ini 'temen' bukan sembarang temen, oke, kita temen but i ever have story with him but I didnt continue it again. I choose to cut off the story because one of BIG reason. But we still friend and friend, thats it!...... Yah, untuk satu hari kemarin emang memorable sih, karena entahlah gw merasa 'terkunci' dengan moment tersebut. BUT I like his perfume, badly! maybe next time I will say that to him and make him little bit blushing... ;)

Minggu, 18 Juli 2010

Military Jacket

















Lately military jacket was inspired my style, I dreaming about that jacket (hehe). But nothing fit in my petite size. But then when I didnt have plan to shopping, I see SALE sign on Forever 21. Not only SALE but when I see the tag price its ; BARGAIN!. First, I didnt excited about the bargain dress. But when I see the jacket and yes its green--sexy--hot military jacket with crazy bargain price from IDR 399 goes to IDR 150!!! argggggggggh, drive me nuts! I have to buy, have to! and yes I buy!, hahaha....its comfortable jacket and I love the 'skin' when I touched. Finally I have another 'one', and my next wishlist are ; G L O V E S! yes, rock n roll gloves.
love notes : Thanks to WhoWearDaily and cupcakes & cashmere for help me giving tips how to wear military jacket, *kiss*...

What I want for this Month

1. Bowl Hair & red lips





2. Wayfarer
3. Gloves









Senin, 12 Juli 2010

H E A V Y choice

Caffeine or...











Nicotine.... both are heavy, but sometimes I need one of them, I R O N I C...

Selasa, 06 Juli 2010

Boring, Comfort Zone, Alter Ego and Inspiration




Lately I just got inspired by something 'new' in my life. Fun fact in the name of inadvertent, I just stumble across with that thigy. Wonderfull, how perfect human is being humanly as human as the great creature was created by GOD. We have brain, sensibility ( I dont know), feeling, pride,bla bla the point is human as perfect creature by GOD. Human have two side, BAD and GOOD. How about desire, passion and wild side? or the cool version was ALTER EGO. Take example from here :

@ Light Yagami is an ace student with great prospects--and he's bored out of his mind. But all that changes when he finds the Death Note, a notebook dropped by a rogue Shinigami death god. Any human whose name is written in the notebook dies, and now Light has vowed to use the power of the Death Note to rid the world of evil. But when criminals begin dropping dead, the authorities send the legendary detective L to track down the killer. With L hot on his heels, will Light lose sight of his noble goal... or his life? (taken from Death Note comics)

@ or in JUNO ; She is boring. And just because the boring reason she's pregnant, she is do it with her best friend.

@ Sussana lau : fashion blogger from London, she is basically work as accounting. Her work life was boring then she decide and start posting her looks on the blog. Since then, she become famous fashion blogger and take change to seat in every fashion show.

@ in ElizabethTown movie ; Drew Baylor (Orlando Bloom). Drew is fired for his mistake and promptly also dumped by his girl friend. On the verge of suicide, Drew is oddly given a new purpose in life when he go back to his family's.

Or another boring story. Jadi apa yang bisa diambil?, me personally, mengambil hikmah si boring ini as sesuatu yang menginspirasi untuk keluar dari comfort zone. But, JUNO nga bisa dijadikan tolak ukur yang wise, karena dia boring lalu dia memtuskan untuk ....... . Oke, How about alter ego?. IN L and Sussana case, ok L dulu. I know this is only fiction but dont take too much seriously as god of death? (gimme break), in his case are : student with great prospects--and he's bored out of his mind. Its humanly rite?. Dalam kehidupan nyata pun orang-orang kategori ini pun stuck dalam menjalani kehidupan 'lurus'nya, kamsudnya hidup yg itu-itu aja. Sussana Lau?, yes, pekerjaan yang membosankan lalu dia memutuskan untuk kick the comfort zone out then she became famous famous fashion blogger karena hobi.

Cerita-cerita seperti Sussana, L, atau mungkin Drew?, si desainer sepatu yang frustasi karena habis di pecat dan berencana untuk bunuh diri tapi terselamatkan oleh keadaan. I've got learn things and study how life is turning around just like our beloved earth. How poeple change by habit, what they read, they watch, life experience. blah blah... Setiap orang pasti berubah, kalo ada yang nga berubah ga tau deh itu orang makan apaan (HA HA HA)... Tapi uniknya dari kebosanan, ke-STUCK-an atau yang lebih hopelessnya lagi, some poeple say ; LIFE SUCKS!!, I dont think so, maybe you yang sucks (HAHAI)..
In my opinion (sekali lagi in MY opinion), what I study from several 'case', boring menciptakan sebuah ALTER EGO. Alter what?, ALTER EGO, karakter yang terbentuk di luar diri kita, istilahnya sisi liar, mungkin?. Oke take example ; David Bowie. Dia penyanyi tapi di panggung dia 'memecah' dirinya as Ziggy Stardust. Or Sussana Lau or Sussie Bubble, dia pekerja akunting tapi ALTER EGO as fashion blogger, nah kurang lebih begitu.

Boring, boredom dan bored, kecenderungan stuck dengan hal atau rutinitas yang itu-itu saja dan butuh pencerahan. Gw tau ketika gw nulis ini pasti diluar sana yang baca ngangguk-ngangguk setuju, ya kaaaaaan? Oke, back to boring case, Yes, I hate when I sink to deep into COMFORT ZONE. Dalam teori asal-asalan gw, Comfot Zone (menciptakan sebuah)-- KEJENUHAN--STUCK--Kemati gayaan--Refreshing by seeking some inspiration = NEW YOU or ALTER EGO, perhaps?.
Sebagai manusia biasa, tentu gw pernah merasakan kebosanan yang sangat. I try harder to fix the shit condition. Alone. Ada saat gw merasa merasa rasa rasa kayaknya lebih baik masalah di simpen dan diselesaikan secara sendirian. berat, iya pasti. Tapi di saat penderitaan, tekanan yang sudah memuncak jangan pernah lupa mengingat kembali siapakah yang menciptakan kita. ALLAH. Kadang dari 'case-case' dan beragam jenis orang, mereka ada yang lari mencari kenikmatan sebuah halusinasi, bayangan psikadelik (weeds or drugs), menikmati setiap tarikan dan isapan nikotin (rokok), membasahi tenggorokan dan mencari sensasi dari racikan alkohol dan efeknya atau bermain mata dengan kupu-kupu malam (alias 'ayam') atau menikmati gegap gempita dunia malam (mati lampu kali yee) or atau lebih memilih sendiri dan merengungi, mengkritik, memvonis, menyalahkan diri sendiri dan curhat kepada ALLAH. Ini yang gw sebut sebuah 'kecanduan dan kenikmatan' yang bisa dinikmati abadi dan gratis. Rasa paling perih adalah ketika dimana gw harus menyadari bahwa hidup ini adalah dunia realita bukan mimpi dan hadapilah!. Apa lagi harapan yang tidak sesuai, rasanya patah hati. Jika orang-orang mendayu-dayu karena merasakan 'sakau' dan sakit karena dikhianti cinta (cough) sementara stuk dengan masalah yang sama dan mencari-cari terus penyelesaiannya. Apa yang gw lakukan di masa boring ini datang mencekam?, seeking for new challenge, experience and learn--study new things, sebelumnya tentu berdoa meminta ridho (hehe).

Butuh keberanian yang sangat besar untuk bisa keluar dari COMFORT ZONE. Dan modal nekad, tentunya. Ada satu cerita yang sangat sangat menginspirasi untuk melakukan sebuah gerakan mendorong si comfort zone ;

@ I was in Argentina on vacation in january 2006 and I noticed that a lot of local farmers and polo players were wearing these slip ons called alpargatas. Around teh same time, I met some people doing volunteer work in the area and they told me about shoe drive they were running for the local kids who couldnt afford shoes. I went with them and heard stories I'II never forget one was about two brothers and one sisters, and they had only one pair of shoes, so the kids would alternate every third day to go to school. This is crazy. How we can fix this?. I didnt feel like a straight charity was the most sustainable way to do it. And what happen with my bored of my charity? So I asked myself, what if I had a for profit business whose charter stated that for every pair of shoes the company sold it, it would give one pair to a child in need?. The name of TOMS comes from tomorrow the idea is that you buy one today, we give one to a child tomorrow. - Blake Mycoskie, founder TOMS sneaks-

@ " Sometimes in your career, you just have to jump in. You'll learn to swim!" - Natalie Massenet, founder Net-A-Porter.com-
(all by TeenVogue HandBook)

Luar biasa, subhanallah. mereka berani loncat dari comfort zone dan mengambil resiko dalam hidup. Mungkin poinnya ya kembali lagi ke ihklas. Tapi serius deh, gw salut dengan orang-orang yang break the limit macem Blake Mycoskie, Marc Jacobs, Richard Benson (bener ga nulisnya) atau kisah-kisah sukes para penemu jaman dulu, spirit itulah yang cari. Gimana caranya bisa punya mental baja---kuping cuek (bodo amat orang mau ngomong apa yang menjalani hidup kita adalah diri kita sendiri, dan kadang persepsi, opini orang yg 'ga bertanggung jawab' bisa dikategorikan sumber pemusnah semangat 45, menurut gw sih)---percaya diri dan keyakinan = sukses!, yah bisa jadi.

Lucu,,,, Ini kejadian sama gw, sehabis gw pulang dari berkegiatan Minggu kemaren, (berangkat dari kasus : Boring & butuh pencerahan atau pengalaman baru) gw panik karena gw menjelajah daerah yang belum gw ngerti dan gw di sini sendirian. Pertama, gw sempet down karena kok ya jauh amat ya? apa gw pulang aja?. Dalam hati bertekad, ' maju terus mel, inget pengalaman adalah sesuatu yang tidak ternilai dan terulang di kemudian hari, just enjoy the moment". Oke, gw kembali yakin dan terus mengakhiri perjalanan ini. Then, ketika gw sampe dan menuntaskan rencana 1 harian itu rasanya puas dan bahagia. Jam udah menunjukkan pukul 8 malam dan gw masih di sana, aduh panik, mana sendirian lagi tapi ah ada ALLAH yang gw yakin karena ini tujuannya baik jadi jalan pulangnya pun ditunjukkan kemudahan. Singkat kata, di tengah menikmati perjalanan pulang ada sesuatu yang gw rasakan, gw merasa rasa menemukan sebuah bayangan jiwa yang selama ini entah kemana (lebai). Serius, perjalanan pulang yang udah malem, gw melihat hiruk pikuk pasar malam, lalu lalang orang di terminal, then I smile to myself, what a wonderfull day, gw bisa dapet banyak hari itu mulai dari A dan Z (termasuk kesempatan berkenalan dengan anak muda dari daerah sebrang and he's cute). Misi gw untuk membunuh boring dan comfort zone di hari Minggu (helooooo is Sunday morning) -- pulang mendapatkan sebuah pencerahan atau inspirasi, alhamdulillah ini lah jalan yang sudah ditunjukkan oleh yang Maha Kuasa. :)

Si inspirasi itu efeknya menempel di kepala dan butuh 1x24 jam untuk segera bergerak cepat menyelesaikan masalah yang saat ini sedang menghadapai. Life is UP and DOWN. Jika ada orang yang merasa hidupnya lurus-lurus aja, I bet you will you never ever dare your self to take new challenge or too spolied to waste time to reach and learn something new in life, Gosh please!. If you have money i mean a lot lot of money, use is wisely. Take a change, new experience and jiwailah itu semua. Hidup indah jika gw merasa menjiwai peran gw di situ.Ga percaya? coba aja pelan-pelan ( yang ga setuju, ga usah ngotot, santai aja, jawab dalam diri sendiri perihal ini). I live what I love, gw memiliki tujuan, konsep, prinsip dan pencapaian yang mungkin hanya diri gw yang mengerti (bukan egois) kadang ada penghalang yang nga mau ngerti dengan tujuan ini, tapi gw tetap mempertahankan itu semua karena ini hal yang hanya gw yang tau, I need advice, tentu. Gw hanya manusia biasa, tapi segeralah memisahkan mana advice yang real dan bias. You know what the best things in your life, SO DO IT!. If the shit neighbor says you just wasting time, forget that shit!. Trust me, ada beberapa orang yang tidak ingin melihat kita sukses. Please, I can see 'them' in some place. Jauhi orang itu jauh-jauh, sejauhnya kalo bisa. Hang out with poeple who respect you are, not because you're the top of the most exist human alive (PLEASE!), but poeple, friends who have INTIMATE PERSONAL relationship with you. Ini penting, karena dari hubungan antar personal yang 'intim', satu sama lain yang sudah saling mengenal lebih dalam, mengerti kekurangan satu sama lain, trust me thats what we call true friend are forever (yeaaah as long keep contact laaa). Jujur, pribadi ini bukan penganut aliran 'BEST FRIENDS TOGETHER AND WE DIE TOGETHER (ini umpama aja sih), please, nga semua hal bisa di bagi ke orang lain kan????. So, separated it dude!. Dan gw telah bertemu dengan beberapa personal yang menurut gw luar biasa semangatnya, cara pikirnya, tetap tenang dalam meng-handle masalah, yang super duper sabar, jujur ( I like it), jadi diri sendiri ( ga perlu jaim setengah mati atau jaga wibawa kalo lo bukan seorang bos perusahaan besar, guru atau profesi apalah yang membutuhkan ini), kreatif, inovatif, percaya diri, mandiri banyak deh intinya 'orang-orang' ini yang membuat gw terinspirasi dan belajar banyak dari mereka ... (jangan GR yeee, haha)

Intinya, Boring, comfort zone, alter ego dan inspirasi adalah salah satu bagian dalam hidup yang harus terus gw cari dan gali. Hal yang menarik adalah, dimana gw bisa belajar hal baru dan belajar mengerti--menyelesaikan satu masalah. Berangkat dari BORING tersebut, menciptakan COMFORT ZONE yang amat sangat nyaman sehingga butuh ALTER EGO untuk 'memecah', me-mutan-kan pikiran agar segera keluar mencari pencerahan atau INSPIRASI. Try it and have fun ;)





NOTE : to my beloved reader :)

Kamis, 01 Juli 2010

Tired and Restless


I feel tired. Again, I have problem with my sleeping time, again. Geees, This month I start to working, alhamdulillah. Its been for 2 years being jobless and useless. And do it nothing, no, I have online shop, so I've got money from there. But it doesn't enough!, I need a lot lot lot of money and good good salary. First thing if I've got salary, I would buy gift for my parents. Geesss, Im not yet make them proud, sad and I feel frustrating. Meanwhile, all my college friends, some of them, already have good position in their career. Me?. Just stuck like a shit, my daily work everyday while Im in home just blogging. But I never shame with my career status. I ever work, twice. Dont ask about my experience. I dont have it. But I learn a lot. Yeh, during 'jobless and useless' moment, gw males keluar rumah karena 'parno' bakal di tanya-tanyain sama tetangga ; "eh anaknya ibu anu ya?, udah kerja dimana"?. Atau versi paling sucksnya : "eh anaknya ibu anu ya?, kok nga kerja"?. Go da hell deh lo!. Mostly ibu-ibu tetangga suka kepo pengen tau aja urusan orang, mau gw udah kerja kek, kawin, punya pacar, ga usah deh ngurusin hidup gw!. Indonesians, yes, some of them are really want to know or too much care about somebody else life, kampret!. Its nice sometimes but mostly sucks for introvert person like me. I really respect with privacy. Maybe because Im introvert person?. I dont think so, oke back to career. My career and love life is sucks, both are stuck. Seeking for job is easy but difficult and super duper hard to gain that. I feel UP and DOWN to keep me survive. My habit is going insane, almost everyday i drink coffee and hard to sleep at night, meanwhile I have wake up every 5 every morning. How does it feel your body?. Im restless on my bed every night, too many things in my mind. I need to go away, refresh my mind.....!!!!
and even I start sneak away and smoking...


After waiting so long, finally I have interview and training in one company. After 2 days training, I had job test. Im sure that I can finish the job test and try hard to think positive. Thanks god, now, they hired me and in this month I will sign contract. Wish me luck, but I do love this job, this is kind of something like I always wanted in my career life, thanks GOD. I love you..... :)

Rabu, 23 Juni 2010

Im in love


Im in love, again?. Yes. It could be anything. Not always with someone that I adore sooo much but it can be my shoes, bags, the way poeple smile to me, sunshine, the happiness moment, air, sky, GOD, my inspiring poeps, close friend, my fave book/magazine, designer, creative poeps, etc etc. When I feel this way, Im so happy and even I dont know how to say or describe this feeling. Maybe, this feeling come from GOD and as human I have say thanks to GOD with everysingle pieces of enjoyable, breath that GOD giving to me. Even I know I have some difficulty to get something or achieve in my life, but, I have extra hard work again to reach that. I know I supposed not complain too much but I do my best. I hope in my birthday, in this year, I've got my achievement in my life either about career or lovelife, wish me luck!.

Selasa, 08 Juni 2010

WAKE UP CALL



VS






Coffee VS Sleep


* According to TeenVogue September 2004, an article ; Wake up call by Liza Featherstone. This article really help me ;


// Go to sleep and wake up at the same time every day.

// When you wake up, open the blinds or turn on as many lights as possible. Go outside : walk the dog or get the newspaper.

// Avoid caffeine after lunch.

// Dont smoke : Nicotine is a stimulant.

// before you go to sleep, relax by taking bath or reading in bed. Turn off your pager and cell phone. Avoid the computer and TV exposure to bright lights just before bedtime can delay sleep.




* According to TeenVogue March 2007, an article; The young and the restless by Leigh Belz:

// the best way to consistently improve the quality and quantity of sleep is to make lifestyle changes. the first step is to try and go to bed at the same time every night. This, says Mindell, gets your body into a pattern. Simplifying your schedule will also help you decompress. Another tip is to take technology out of your room. IM-ing right before bedtime will keep your synapses firing.




"lack of sleep can leave you feeling anxious and unable to cope and affects key body processes like metabolism and immunity"


Rabu, 02 Juni 2010

Villain

// Ed Westwick, arrogant and tricky








// Cillian Murphy, deadly and dagerous with frozen eyes




Sometimes when I spell ; v-i-l-l-a-i-n, one thing across my mind was ; someone laugh like hyena. Typical laugh that makes you feel suddenly frightened... or sometimes the way they look at you with they evil eyes. (thunderbolt) Somehow, when I watch on movies, I dont know the villain seems like have 'dark' charming, somehow, sexy and irritating. When I watch Gossip Girls, I always more like Chuck Bass and Blair. My fave villain so far was, Chuck Bass. I love his arrogant character on GG, the way he looking, hi-class style etc etc. And movies, im so in love with Cillian Murphy did in..... movie, OMG, I forget about the title. I love the Cillian 'frozen' eyes, deadly and dangerous. Errrrrrrrrrrhhh..... (pic : polyvore)

Senin, 31 Mei 2010

What kind a type?

// Kim Bum, the cutie pie or kitty cat face. Takes my breath away...




// Gabe Nevins, cutie with COLD and COOLness eyes...


// Alex Turner, cutie and 'dangerous'
(he playing guitar and vocalist on alternative band, what more HOT than that?. And he still cute without too much effort).


Buzzzzzzzz.....
I remember sumthin. When I was in college, I was have a crush on with my senior. I still remember at the moment I saw him for the first time. He wore ugly converse with tape, cute, short, skinny, white t-shirt, bangs hair and jeans. I call him, mr. little, because he is short and have cutie pie face. One thing that I still love from him is, her bangs hair and how he comb his hair with hands. I dont know, at that time he so mesmerize and irritating!. His name is Mehdi, oh even I love that name. But, after he graduated from college, one news was broken my heart that he already have girl friend. SHIT!. But, I never care about the girl friend, toh, selama gw tebar pesona dia flexibel and membalas flirting gw. We never have intimate conversation, gw sama dia cuma bertemu mata dan senyum. Thats it, only have eye contact. It was crazy feeling ever I have in my life. I falling love deeply with someone. I think thats enough, I adore him as someone have talented skill on design. I was major in grafic design. But then, its about 2 years after me graduated, I meet with him again. He more fat, fresh, wear 'fancy' clothes. I never ever spot his girl friend. It's weird, during college my heart only for him, love is blind and its sucks!, but at the moment I meet with him again, I didnt have any kind of respect anymore!. Because one or two things.

Talking about boys, I always breathtaking with the boys having cutie pie face or baby face. Baby face just like kitty cat, wew!. Hahaha, my celebrity crush was like ; Alex Turner from Artic Mongkeys, Kim Bum, Korean actors. Gabe Nevins, ohhhhhh yea, I love the way he looking and gaze. But, Im not really into American boys, except Gabe. I do more love British guy, with the messy hair, arrogant but somehow is sexy, sharp and gap chin, long coat, scarf, smoking, walking cool on the street. Just like Richard Ascroft did in his video clip ; " Bitter Sweet Symphony".
How about Asian boys, I do more love Korean boys. They porcelain face, cute and sexy cat eyes, makes me wurf wurf wurf wurf..... breath taking!.