Tired and Restless

I feel tired. Again, I have problem with my sleeping time, again. Geees, This month I start to working, alhamdulillah. Its been for 2 years being jobless and useless. And do it nothing, no, I have online shop, so I've got money from there. But it doesn't enough!, I need a lot lot lot of money and good good salary. First thing if I've got salary, I would buy gift for my parents. Geesss, Im not yet make them proud, sad and I feel frustrating. Meanwhile, all my college friends, some of them, already have good position in their career. Me?. Just stuck like a shit, my daily work everyday while Im in home just blogging. But I never shame with my career status. I ever work, twice. Dont ask about my experience. I dont have it. But I learn a lot. Yeh, during 'jobless and useless' moment, gw males keluar rumah karena 'parno' bakal di tanya-tanyain sama tetangga ; "eh anaknya ibu anu ya?, udah kerja dimana"?. Atau versi paling sucksnya : "eh anaknya ibu anu ya?, kok nga kerja"?. Go da hell deh lo!. Mostly ibu-ibu tetangga suka kepo pengen tau aja urusan orang, mau gw udah kerja kek, kawin, punya pacar, ga usah deh ngurusin hidup gw!. Indonesians, yes, some of them are really want to know or too much care about somebody else life, kampret!. Its nice sometimes but mostly sucks for introvert person like me. I really respect with privacy. Maybe because Im introvert person?. I dont think so, oke back to career. My career and love life is sucks, both are stuck. Seeking for job is easy but difficult and super duper hard to gain that. I feel UP and DOWN to keep me survive. My habit is going insane, almost everyday i drink coffee and hard to sleep at night, meanwhile I have wake up every 5 every morning. How does it feel your body?. Im restless on my bed every night, too many things in my mind. I need to go away, refresh my mind.....!!!!

and even I start sneak away and smoking...

After waiting so long, finally I have interview and training in one company. After 2 days training, I had job test. Im sure that I can finish the job test and try hard to think positive. Thanks god, now, they hired me and in this month I will sign contract. Wish me luck, but I do love this job, this is kind of something like I always wanted in my career life, thanks GOD. I love you..... :)