Minggu, 18 Juli 2010

Military Jacket

















Lately military jacket was inspired my style, I dreaming about that jacket (hehe). But nothing fit in my petite size. But then when I didnt have plan to shopping, I see SALE sign on Forever 21. Not only SALE but when I see the tag price its ; BARGAIN!. First, I didnt excited about the bargain dress. But when I see the jacket and yes its green--sexy--hot military jacket with crazy bargain price from IDR 399 goes to IDR 150!!! argggggggggh, drive me nuts! I have to buy, have to! and yes I buy!, hahaha....its comfortable jacket and I love the 'skin' when I touched. Finally I have another 'one', and my next wishlist are ; G L O V E S! yes, rock n roll gloves.
love notes : Thanks to WhoWearDaily and cupcakes & cashmere for help me giving tips how to wear military jacket, *kiss*...

What I want for this Month

1. Bowl Hair & red lips





2. Wayfarer
3. Gloves









Senin, 12 Juli 2010

H E A V Y choice

Caffeine or...











Nicotine.... both are heavy, but sometimes I need one of them, I R O N I C...

Selasa, 06 Juli 2010

Boring, Comfort Zone, Alter Ego and Inspiration




Lately I just got inspired by something 'new' in my life. Fun fact in the name of inadvertent, I just stumble across with that thigy. Wonderfull, how perfect human is being humanly as human as the great creature was created by GOD. We have brain, sensibility ( I dont know), feeling, pride,bla bla the point is human as perfect creature by GOD. Human have two side, BAD and GOOD. How about desire, passion and wild side? or the cool version was ALTER EGO. Take example from here :

@ Light Yagami is an ace student with great prospects--and he's bored out of his mind. But all that changes when he finds the Death Note, a notebook dropped by a rogue Shinigami death god. Any human whose name is written in the notebook dies, and now Light has vowed to use the power of the Death Note to rid the world of evil. But when criminals begin dropping dead, the authorities send the legendary detective L to track down the killer. With L hot on his heels, will Light lose sight of his noble goal... or his life? (taken from Death Note comics)

@ or in JUNO ; She is boring. And just because the boring reason she's pregnant, she is do it with her best friend.

@ Sussana lau : fashion blogger from London, she is basically work as accounting. Her work life was boring then she decide and start posting her looks on the blog. Since then, she become famous fashion blogger and take change to seat in every fashion show.

@ in ElizabethTown movie ; Drew Baylor (Orlando Bloom). Drew is fired for his mistake and promptly also dumped by his girl friend. On the verge of suicide, Drew is oddly given a new purpose in life when he go back to his family's.

Or another boring story. Jadi apa yang bisa diambil?, me personally, mengambil hikmah si boring ini as sesuatu yang menginspirasi untuk keluar dari comfort zone. But, JUNO nga bisa dijadikan tolak ukur yang wise, karena dia boring lalu dia memtuskan untuk ....... . Oke, How about alter ego?. IN L and Sussana case, ok L dulu. I know this is only fiction but dont take too much seriously as god of death? (gimme break), in his case are : student with great prospects--and he's bored out of his mind. Its humanly rite?. Dalam kehidupan nyata pun orang-orang kategori ini pun stuck dalam menjalani kehidupan 'lurus'nya, kamsudnya hidup yg itu-itu aja. Sussana Lau?, yes, pekerjaan yang membosankan lalu dia memutuskan untuk kick the comfort zone out then she became famous famous fashion blogger karena hobi.

Cerita-cerita seperti Sussana, L, atau mungkin Drew?, si desainer sepatu yang frustasi karena habis di pecat dan berencana untuk bunuh diri tapi terselamatkan oleh keadaan. I've got learn things and study how life is turning around just like our beloved earth. How poeple change by habit, what they read, they watch, life experience. blah blah... Setiap orang pasti berubah, kalo ada yang nga berubah ga tau deh itu orang makan apaan (HA HA HA)... Tapi uniknya dari kebosanan, ke-STUCK-an atau yang lebih hopelessnya lagi, some poeple say ; LIFE SUCKS!!, I dont think so, maybe you yang sucks (HAHAI)..
In my opinion (sekali lagi in MY opinion), what I study from several 'case', boring menciptakan sebuah ALTER EGO. Alter what?, ALTER EGO, karakter yang terbentuk di luar diri kita, istilahnya sisi liar, mungkin?. Oke take example ; David Bowie. Dia penyanyi tapi di panggung dia 'memecah' dirinya as Ziggy Stardust. Or Sussana Lau or Sussie Bubble, dia pekerja akunting tapi ALTER EGO as fashion blogger, nah kurang lebih begitu.

Boring, boredom dan bored, kecenderungan stuck dengan hal atau rutinitas yang itu-itu saja dan butuh pencerahan. Gw tau ketika gw nulis ini pasti diluar sana yang baca ngangguk-ngangguk setuju, ya kaaaaaan? Oke, back to boring case, Yes, I hate when I sink to deep into COMFORT ZONE. Dalam teori asal-asalan gw, Comfot Zone (menciptakan sebuah)-- KEJENUHAN--STUCK--Kemati gayaan--Refreshing by seeking some inspiration = NEW YOU or ALTER EGO, perhaps?.
Sebagai manusia biasa, tentu gw pernah merasakan kebosanan yang sangat. I try harder to fix the shit condition. Alone. Ada saat gw merasa merasa rasa rasa kayaknya lebih baik masalah di simpen dan diselesaikan secara sendirian. berat, iya pasti. Tapi di saat penderitaan, tekanan yang sudah memuncak jangan pernah lupa mengingat kembali siapakah yang menciptakan kita. ALLAH. Kadang dari 'case-case' dan beragam jenis orang, mereka ada yang lari mencari kenikmatan sebuah halusinasi, bayangan psikadelik (weeds or drugs), menikmati setiap tarikan dan isapan nikotin (rokok), membasahi tenggorokan dan mencari sensasi dari racikan alkohol dan efeknya atau bermain mata dengan kupu-kupu malam (alias 'ayam') atau menikmati gegap gempita dunia malam (mati lampu kali yee) or atau lebih memilih sendiri dan merengungi, mengkritik, memvonis, menyalahkan diri sendiri dan curhat kepada ALLAH. Ini yang gw sebut sebuah 'kecanduan dan kenikmatan' yang bisa dinikmati abadi dan gratis. Rasa paling perih adalah ketika dimana gw harus menyadari bahwa hidup ini adalah dunia realita bukan mimpi dan hadapilah!. Apa lagi harapan yang tidak sesuai, rasanya patah hati. Jika orang-orang mendayu-dayu karena merasakan 'sakau' dan sakit karena dikhianti cinta (cough) sementara stuk dengan masalah yang sama dan mencari-cari terus penyelesaiannya. Apa yang gw lakukan di masa boring ini datang mencekam?, seeking for new challenge, experience and learn--study new things, sebelumnya tentu berdoa meminta ridho (hehe).

Butuh keberanian yang sangat besar untuk bisa keluar dari COMFORT ZONE. Dan modal nekad, tentunya. Ada satu cerita yang sangat sangat menginspirasi untuk melakukan sebuah gerakan mendorong si comfort zone ;

@ I was in Argentina on vacation in january 2006 and I noticed that a lot of local farmers and polo players were wearing these slip ons called alpargatas. Around teh same time, I met some people doing volunteer work in the area and they told me about shoe drive they were running for the local kids who couldnt afford shoes. I went with them and heard stories I'II never forget one was about two brothers and one sisters, and they had only one pair of shoes, so the kids would alternate every third day to go to school. This is crazy. How we can fix this?. I didnt feel like a straight charity was the most sustainable way to do it. And what happen with my bored of my charity? So I asked myself, what if I had a for profit business whose charter stated that for every pair of shoes the company sold it, it would give one pair to a child in need?. The name of TOMS comes from tomorrow the idea is that you buy one today, we give one to a child tomorrow. - Blake Mycoskie, founder TOMS sneaks-

@ " Sometimes in your career, you just have to jump in. You'll learn to swim!" - Natalie Massenet, founder Net-A-Porter.com-
(all by TeenVogue HandBook)

Luar biasa, subhanallah. mereka berani loncat dari comfort zone dan mengambil resiko dalam hidup. Mungkin poinnya ya kembali lagi ke ihklas. Tapi serius deh, gw salut dengan orang-orang yang break the limit macem Blake Mycoskie, Marc Jacobs, Richard Benson (bener ga nulisnya) atau kisah-kisah sukes para penemu jaman dulu, spirit itulah yang cari. Gimana caranya bisa punya mental baja---kuping cuek (bodo amat orang mau ngomong apa yang menjalani hidup kita adalah diri kita sendiri, dan kadang persepsi, opini orang yg 'ga bertanggung jawab' bisa dikategorikan sumber pemusnah semangat 45, menurut gw sih)---percaya diri dan keyakinan = sukses!, yah bisa jadi.

Lucu,,,, Ini kejadian sama gw, sehabis gw pulang dari berkegiatan Minggu kemaren, (berangkat dari kasus : Boring & butuh pencerahan atau pengalaman baru) gw panik karena gw menjelajah daerah yang belum gw ngerti dan gw di sini sendirian. Pertama, gw sempet down karena kok ya jauh amat ya? apa gw pulang aja?. Dalam hati bertekad, ' maju terus mel, inget pengalaman adalah sesuatu yang tidak ternilai dan terulang di kemudian hari, just enjoy the moment". Oke, gw kembali yakin dan terus mengakhiri perjalanan ini. Then, ketika gw sampe dan menuntaskan rencana 1 harian itu rasanya puas dan bahagia. Jam udah menunjukkan pukul 8 malam dan gw masih di sana, aduh panik, mana sendirian lagi tapi ah ada ALLAH yang gw yakin karena ini tujuannya baik jadi jalan pulangnya pun ditunjukkan kemudahan. Singkat kata, di tengah menikmati perjalanan pulang ada sesuatu yang gw rasakan, gw merasa rasa menemukan sebuah bayangan jiwa yang selama ini entah kemana (lebai). Serius, perjalanan pulang yang udah malem, gw melihat hiruk pikuk pasar malam, lalu lalang orang di terminal, then I smile to myself, what a wonderfull day, gw bisa dapet banyak hari itu mulai dari A dan Z (termasuk kesempatan berkenalan dengan anak muda dari daerah sebrang and he's cute). Misi gw untuk membunuh boring dan comfort zone di hari Minggu (helooooo is Sunday morning) -- pulang mendapatkan sebuah pencerahan atau inspirasi, alhamdulillah ini lah jalan yang sudah ditunjukkan oleh yang Maha Kuasa. :)

Si inspirasi itu efeknya menempel di kepala dan butuh 1x24 jam untuk segera bergerak cepat menyelesaikan masalah yang saat ini sedang menghadapai. Life is UP and DOWN. Jika ada orang yang merasa hidupnya lurus-lurus aja, I bet you will you never ever dare your self to take new challenge or too spolied to waste time to reach and learn something new in life, Gosh please!. If you have money i mean a lot lot of money, use is wisely. Take a change, new experience and jiwailah itu semua. Hidup indah jika gw merasa menjiwai peran gw di situ.Ga percaya? coba aja pelan-pelan ( yang ga setuju, ga usah ngotot, santai aja, jawab dalam diri sendiri perihal ini). I live what I love, gw memiliki tujuan, konsep, prinsip dan pencapaian yang mungkin hanya diri gw yang mengerti (bukan egois) kadang ada penghalang yang nga mau ngerti dengan tujuan ini, tapi gw tetap mempertahankan itu semua karena ini hal yang hanya gw yang tau, I need advice, tentu. Gw hanya manusia biasa, tapi segeralah memisahkan mana advice yang real dan bias. You know what the best things in your life, SO DO IT!. If the shit neighbor says you just wasting time, forget that shit!. Trust me, ada beberapa orang yang tidak ingin melihat kita sukses. Please, I can see 'them' in some place. Jauhi orang itu jauh-jauh, sejauhnya kalo bisa. Hang out with poeple who respect you are, not because you're the top of the most exist human alive (PLEASE!), but poeple, friends who have INTIMATE PERSONAL relationship with you. Ini penting, karena dari hubungan antar personal yang 'intim', satu sama lain yang sudah saling mengenal lebih dalam, mengerti kekurangan satu sama lain, trust me thats what we call true friend are forever (yeaaah as long keep contact laaa). Jujur, pribadi ini bukan penganut aliran 'BEST FRIENDS TOGETHER AND WE DIE TOGETHER (ini umpama aja sih), please, nga semua hal bisa di bagi ke orang lain kan????. So, separated it dude!. Dan gw telah bertemu dengan beberapa personal yang menurut gw luar biasa semangatnya, cara pikirnya, tetap tenang dalam meng-handle masalah, yang super duper sabar, jujur ( I like it), jadi diri sendiri ( ga perlu jaim setengah mati atau jaga wibawa kalo lo bukan seorang bos perusahaan besar, guru atau profesi apalah yang membutuhkan ini), kreatif, inovatif, percaya diri, mandiri banyak deh intinya 'orang-orang' ini yang membuat gw terinspirasi dan belajar banyak dari mereka ... (jangan GR yeee, haha)

Intinya, Boring, comfort zone, alter ego dan inspirasi adalah salah satu bagian dalam hidup yang harus terus gw cari dan gali. Hal yang menarik adalah, dimana gw bisa belajar hal baru dan belajar mengerti--menyelesaikan satu masalah. Berangkat dari BORING tersebut, menciptakan COMFORT ZONE yang amat sangat nyaman sehingga butuh ALTER EGO untuk 'memecah', me-mutan-kan pikiran agar segera keluar mencari pencerahan atau INSPIRASI. Try it and have fun ;)





NOTE : to my beloved reader :)

Kamis, 01 Juli 2010

Tired and Restless


I feel tired. Again, I have problem with my sleeping time, again. Geees, This month I start to working, alhamdulillah. Its been for 2 years being jobless and useless. And do it nothing, no, I have online shop, so I've got money from there. But it doesn't enough!, I need a lot lot lot of money and good good salary. First thing if I've got salary, I would buy gift for my parents. Geesss, Im not yet make them proud, sad and I feel frustrating. Meanwhile, all my college friends, some of them, already have good position in their career. Me?. Just stuck like a shit, my daily work everyday while Im in home just blogging. But I never shame with my career status. I ever work, twice. Dont ask about my experience. I dont have it. But I learn a lot. Yeh, during 'jobless and useless' moment, gw males keluar rumah karena 'parno' bakal di tanya-tanyain sama tetangga ; "eh anaknya ibu anu ya?, udah kerja dimana"?. Atau versi paling sucksnya : "eh anaknya ibu anu ya?, kok nga kerja"?. Go da hell deh lo!. Mostly ibu-ibu tetangga suka kepo pengen tau aja urusan orang, mau gw udah kerja kek, kawin, punya pacar, ga usah deh ngurusin hidup gw!. Indonesians, yes, some of them are really want to know or too much care about somebody else life, kampret!. Its nice sometimes but mostly sucks for introvert person like me. I really respect with privacy. Maybe because Im introvert person?. I dont think so, oke back to career. My career and love life is sucks, both are stuck. Seeking for job is easy but difficult and super duper hard to gain that. I feel UP and DOWN to keep me survive. My habit is going insane, almost everyday i drink coffee and hard to sleep at night, meanwhile I have wake up every 5 every morning. How does it feel your body?. Im restless on my bed every night, too many things in my mind. I need to go away, refresh my mind.....!!!!
and even I start sneak away and smoking...


After waiting so long, finally I have interview and training in one company. After 2 days training, I had job test. Im sure that I can finish the job test and try hard to think positive. Thanks god, now, they hired me and in this month I will sign contract. Wish me luck, but I do love this job, this is kind of something like I always wanted in my career life, thanks GOD. I love you..... :)